Fear....

As I was mowing a few weeks ago I realized I have lived my life in utter and total fear.  I have never been a dare devil, thrill seeker, etc.  But as I was mowing along and talking with God I realized that in every aspect of my life I lived in fear.  I was even afraid to take an extra swipe at the grass that I was mowing even though I have walked it a bunch of times and know that there is nothing to hit.  You see in Sodaville there are rocks everywhere!  So I did it, i stepped out, or more like it, I mowed out an extra three or four widths more and will probably go even further next time.  For many of you this sounds crazy but this is a big step for me to step out of that fear and conquer it.  You see Satan wants to keep us in fear and keep us down so we do not realize our potential and live our lives out fully as God intends for us to do.  For me that even includes mowing!  If I begin to live my life as God is calling me to do than I become a conqueror and that means that Satan will be defeated in my life.  I have learned the hard way to let things go (and people go) and step out, but let me tell you it is so freeing!!!!  I have wanted to write this for a few weeks but have not had the time to sit down and do it till now.  The expectancy in my heart is growing daily and I feel like I am going to erupt with it.  For the last two weeks I have been getting confirmation after confirmation from God on this for my life. Our evening devotions have been very much pointed to this very thing and here is one from Sunday morning church June 23rd:  I am declared righteous, justified, holy and perfect as Christ is, in God's eyes.  I have been set free and there is no condemnation in freedom. I have lived my life according to what I thought everyone else expected of me.  I would not live my life to what I wanted or needed because I truly did not feel I deserved to live my life that way.  But here is another point that I got June 9th: I will answer to God on how I followed my own convictions.  God will lay convictions on my heart but if I do not live them out and worry more about what others think than that is disobedience to God and I will answer to God for that.  You do not know how freeing this feels to me.  I feel utterly giddy right now just writing this out.  I think there is a lot more for me to learn but wow how wonderful this is!!!!  On top of all of this a friend of mine is posting similar things on Facebook about being in expectancy of what God is doing and going to do.  I am so excited about where God is leading me.  I know that in the near future there will be more hard work as I am facing something else but this is helping me to stay positive and be ready for the next difficult climb to yet another victory in my life.  God tastes so good and I just want more and more of Him!  Taste and see that the Lord is good!!  It is wonderful.