communion

Sunday November 6, 2011 it finally sinks in!  I have been going to church most of my life and have known the gift that God gave through his son Jesus.  The most wonderful gift of all is Jesus died in my place "ONCE FOR ALL".  Once for all!  That is what sank in today.  Being the first Sunday of the month we celebrated communion today.   Once for all so I don't have to be ashamed of what I have done and what has been done to me.  It has been taken care of.  I can let go of it and move on.  I am a daughter of the KING!  I have heard this for years but it finally got from my head of knowledge to my heart of truly knowing.  This is a big one for me.  There is so much in my head but so little in my heart right now.  I also discovered that my heart is really quite hard and I know that.  This is my prayer that more goes from my head to my heart as I lean more and more on God.  I have kept people and God at a distance but I can feel and almost see the walls crumbling down around me.  It feels good, mysterious, scary and exhilarating all at the same time.  I also know that as these walls crumble down there will be things brought to light that I have forgotten and will have to forgive or I will have to embrace.  I know there will be hard days to come as well as good days, but as I journey this with God, I hope I can see even more blessings and will learn to live the moments fully.  I have to purpose to live fully in all I do.  That includes work, fun, relaxing and whatever else I do.  Eucharisteo Eucharisteo always precedes the miracle.  I have plenty of miracles that I would like to see for myself as well as for friends and family.  So in order to see them I have to be thankful for what I have.  You know it takes 20 minutes for satiation to set in, which is that feeling of being full after you eat.  I want to be full in the physical as well as the spiritual.  How long does it take to get full?  I don't know but my aim is to try to find out.  This is possible but only if I slow down and live fully in every moment.  Haste makes waste both in the physical as well as the spiritual.  This is an exciting day for me!  God bless.