perspective...

I had to get my perspective right again.  I had a rough weekend and a hard night Monday night.  As a result I was pretty off the scale with my anxieties.  After a good talk this morning and getting my head back into right thinking and getting my perspective right, my anxiety has come down a few notches.  I will hopefully sleep tonight better than I have for a long time.  I need to remember that I am a child of God, I have been justified, I have an advocate sitting at the right hand of God and I am loved by my heavenly father.  Now the hard part of beginning to walk through my childhood with a counselor or someone that is willing to sit with me and able to put Godly perspective into what has happened so I can truly forgive and move on.  I don't know that I believe in forgive and forget.  I don't know that I will ever forget, but I do believe that forgiveness is possible.   I have seen it in others and truly want that peace for myself.  I am so thankful for my church family and a few others.  I cannot say that my biological family is family but I do have family with my church family and a few friends.  As it says in Philippians 4:6-8 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things.  So I need to fill my mind with all of that instead of hitting replay on the tape of my life.  I need to let go of all the regrets.  I need to look forward to the plans that God has for me.  I do still have that expectancy it just got pushed back when replay was hit again and when fingers have been pointed to me and told that I have problems.  You think?  I know that but I need to focus on the good not the bad.  thank God he loves me and cares enough for me to be very patient with me.  I am also very thankful for a husband that has been very encouraging to me and supportive of me during this very difficult journey that I am on.  I know he does not understand a lot of what I am going through but he is here by my side.  God is good and I hope you have a very blessed day!