Good morning...

I would just love to wake up just once and be happy!  I am really longing to have real joy in my life.  I just don't feel like I am getting any closer to that.  How do I reach that?  I am really trying to find the blessings and grace that God gives on a daily basis.  I am trying to not focus on the negative but that is a struggle for me.  I am so thankful for the book we are studying and for other encouragement that I have been getting.  How do I get past the crap?  It feels as though the crap is stacked miles high and I am never going to be able to get it knocked down.  I know that it is a process but I sure would like to have a miracle and have it gone or at least manageable now.  I find that I am worrying about things I have no control over.  I am worried about my kids in Portland.  I am worried about my husband. I am worried about the family and the recent dynamics.  I just want it all to be gone and enjoy where I am in life.  I know for some this seems to be so trivial and I just need to not worry about it, but it is big for me.  Well I am off to the gym maybe that will give me some inspiration.  God bless everyone.