Well this has been an interesting week for me. Last week in class we where to get with someone and share our story. Again I dug my heels in but interestingly enough I connected with two people through my blog. It has been very much needed healing and talking and getting some much needed prayer and support. It has also been a very bad week or two in my weight loss journey. I have fallen off the wagon so to speak this last week or so. I have not stopped going to the gym just not watching what I eat as closely and I can feel the difference and the mocking of the devil of my failure. There is a sign in the gym that says success is failing 9 times and succeeding the 10th time. That is me and so I press on and reject the enemies taunts of my failure that is really my road to success. God loves me the way I am and so I must focus on what God would want me to not on the deceivers lies. Whatever is good, worthy etc is what I am suppose to focus on. Thank you God for loving me and showing me gently your sweet love for me.
Today will be a journey even deeper in my journey as it is spending some time with family that has been a part of the rift. I pray that God shows me even more blessings today as we spend time together. This is an exciting as well as an anxious time for me. I know I must do this for me to continue to move forward. Some times the hardest things to do bring the most blessing and sometimes the least blessings, in our sight. So I must stay focused on God and not the situation. I pray that God lead our conversation.
Well we are back and had a good time. I came home and got a text message from another of family that is a part of the rift. They apologized after I sent a note just trying to explain where I am. They do not have recollection of some of the things that I mentioned but that is ok they still apologized and asked to be forgiven. So now I am thinking on how to respond. I want to do this the right way. I am hopeful this is more healing. God is so awesome and as Amanda put it recently it is awesome to see Him move when we pray and lean on Him. God bless everyone.
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